Finding A Little Bit More of My Soul

It's funny (not ha ha) how your soul can deplete and disappear little by little without even really noticing it. It's not till it's pretty much eaten away all together and someone or something breathes a little life into you and you realise how much of life and feeling that you've been missing out on.

SoH was a huge catalyst for me. I've been feeling that things aren't right for a long time. My solution till meeting him had been to plan my move back to Sydney. When I met him, obviously all of those plans went out the window. He helped me to put some of my hugely strong walls down. I've never let anyone be so close to who the real me is - not even my close friends, not even me! There were so many parts of myself that I've been ignoring.

Today I helped find a little more of myself again. I had Battersea orientation day with MQ today. I met her at Sloane Square and we walked up to Battersea park and had a walk around some of the streets there that we've been looking at moving to. I'm addicted to that park. I saw five squirrels within a few minutes! It was so good for the soul and for my being in general to have time in that park just wandering, looking at all the cute animals and happy families. Canary Wharf really doesn't have anything like that. I've been defending it for so long that it's actually a great place to live - but I think I was defending it to myself more than anyone.

I might not be able to move house tomorrow or anything, but every day I'm finding a little bit more of who I am. Who I used to be and who I've always wanted to be. I think by the new year there could be a whole new Floss for everyone to get to know! It's scary but cool all at the same time.

xxx

PS: this poor squirrel in the picture requires some therapy immediately! The poor little thing was really trying hard to escape from the tree but between scary dogs and screaming children it kept getting pushed higher and higher up the branches! I'm worried for it's emotional stability. Can someone go by the tree at the cafe and check on the poor little fella? x