A summary of events and more thoughts on the rusty spoon situation

• I'm back to my Pre-SoH way of life. My time with the SoH is a distant memory. Pre-SoH I was "happy" enough but it has to be said that Life-of-Floss was a bit of a flat line. Very empty and half my time was taken up with finding ways to keep myself busy and "fulfilled".
• The entrance of the SoH made everything a lot more enriched. A lot more like there was a reason for being the Floss. Life was happy proper. All commented on how I was like a different person and so smiley and relaxed.
• Day 1 of Rusty-Spoon-Gate I couldn't even hold a conversation. I just cried, ran and went on hugely long walks.
• Day 2 of Rusty-Spoon-Gate I went for a run, got dressed up with my hair and make up perfect and spent the afternoon with GK in the show flat she was selling.
• Days 3 through 5 of Rusty-Spoon-Gate I sat at my desk and cried as quietly as I could. Please note that waterproof make up was applied and I kept my grooming up throughout. At no time during this fiasco have the standards of appearance slipped except for day 1. However, it should be taken into consideration that it all took place while I was half way through blow drying my hair and getting ready to meet friends in Chelsea. Clearly I didn't make it.
• For the next week I thought I was fine and ever so pleased with myself for organising a few dates with people that had been in touch during my time with the SoH that I had blown off. Turns out I'm really not up for dating (please see One Month Since entry).
• I realised this morning on the way to work that I'm back to a flat-line situation. There are worse ways to be. I get a huge sense of satisfaction doing fun things and exploring London on my own.
• When I speak to SoH on email these days I actually forget who it is! He's like an internet buddy or one of the friends that live in the USA or Australia that I communicate with solely on email. I forget that he's the one that took the flat line away and then re-instated it again.
• Seeing as the flat line has been in place since 1997 I think it's more within my ultimate comfort zone and I'm embracing it as a lifestyle from here on in. I'm not doing so badly for someone without a pulse. If nothing else, I'm well groomed!
• Two days in a row I have eaten for Britain. Without the opportunity to go for a run I officially feel like a blimp. I really need to stop eating again immediately!!!!